Life is slowing down for me! I am beginning to feel alone all over again. It has only been five months since I moved back to the city where I was birthed and still trying to find my niche! I am sure I will survive but slowly I am dying on the inside. My gal pal JoviD, which you can follow on www.bonejovi.blogspot.com, says that I already survived the three month hump, but eeek, I feel as if though a resurgence of a hump is back!
I am not an easy socialite, though I pretend to be, and I find it hard to simply put myself out there. It is probably best If I simply make a tee shirt that should read "New to the city....I NEED FRIENDS!" And truthfully I should really make one. Part of my Hekature line! Why not? But yes, I am beginning to feel the absence of my comforts back in Texas. I miss my HAPPY hours, and truly they were happy for me! Just me and my great buddies hitting up El Arroyo for dollar margs, or going to Top Shelf Tuesdays at Trudys to get trashed on Cuban 151 Martinis! Or simply going to the Domain to sit and dine and wine ourselves! Oh the pampering days of being an Austinite! I miss it a whole lot and I miss it right about now!
I have been reading a lot in preparation for my writings to come to fruition. I have and I hope I can release some sort of books. Whether it be my Childrens series called "The Dog in Pink...Viktorya St. James" or my life story in "Selftervention:the final flush" or my musings, or my cook book, or my instructional french for spanish speakers books! ughhh, all Ideas and I REALLY NEED TO MAKE IT HAPPEN! BUt like I said, I have been reading a lot of books just to get inspired. The latest one before my sci-fi reading of POD, about an alien spaceship invasion was great, but my latest one is called Love Drugged. I love it! Like the writing and it is based here in Chicago and as I read I can actually picture the scenes and locations they mention. It is a great book but up next is Ricky Martins memoires of ME! Cannot wait to really read it and see what that gurl is really about!
But I guess reading has kept me busy from truly seeing what is missing in my chicago life! Do not get me wrong, I have dabbed into some fun here in the windy city, met some cool peeps but simply do not know how to start the whole new friendship thing...and I do not want to sound desperate but it is whatevs! Lately I have been thinking about visiting Dallas, as most of my friends live there. It would be fun just to go for a weekend and powerstomp the district and simply breathe in my forgotten Texas Air!
For now, I have to make the best of what I have here and as they say...'if life hands you a basket of lemons than make lemonaide!!" But first I need to find the lemons, then sugar, then a pitcher and a bunch of friends to serve it to!! lol Alors...et si je ne peux pas aller au Texas donc il est temps d'aller en France parceque vraiment je la manque and je reve d'etre la pour toujours!!
bisoux-
Hek
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