Love Drugged!

Life is slowing down for me! I am beginning to feel alone all over again. It has only been five months since I moved back to the city where I was birthed and still trying to find my niche!  I am sure I will survive but slowly I am dying on the inside.  My gal pal JoviD, which you can follow on www.bonejovi.blogspot.com, says that I already survived the three month hump, but eeek, I feel as if though a resurgence of a hump is back! 

I am not an easy socialite, though I pretend to be, and I find it hard to simply put myself out there.  It is probably best If I simply make a tee shirt that should read "New to the city....I NEED FRIENDS!"  And truthfully I should really make one. Part of my Hekature line!  Why not?  But yes, I am beginning to feel the absence of my comforts back in Texas. I miss my HAPPY hours, and truly they were happy for me!  Just me and my great buddies hitting up El Arroyo for dollar margs, or going to Top Shelf Tuesdays at Trudys to get trashed on Cuban 151 Martinis! Or simply going to the Domain to sit and dine and wine ourselves!  Oh the pampering days of being an Austinite!  I miss it a whole lot and I miss it right about now! 

I have been reading  a lot in preparation for my writings to come to fruition.  I have and I hope I can release some sort of books. Whether it be my Childrens series called "The Dog in Pink...Viktorya St. James" or my life story  in "Selftervention:the final flush" or my musings, or my cook book, or my instructional french for spanish speakers books! ughhh, all Ideas and I REALLY NEED TO MAKE IT HAPPEN!  BUt like I said, I have been reading a lot of books just to get inspired.  The latest one before my sci-fi reading of POD, about an alien spaceship invasion was great, but my latest one is called Love Drugged.  I love it! Like the writing and it is based here in Chicago and as I read I can actually picture the scenes and locations they mention.  It is  a great book but up next is Ricky Martins memoires of ME!  Cannot wait to really read it and see what that gurl is really about!

But I guess reading has kept me busy from truly seeing what  is missing in my chicago life!  Do not get me wrong, I have dabbed into some fun here in the windy city, met some cool peeps but simply do not know how to start the whole new friendship thing...and I do not want to sound desperate but it is whatevs!  Lately I have been thinking about visiting Dallas, as most of my friends live there. It would be fun just to go for a weekend and powerstomp the district and simply breathe in my forgotten Texas Air! 

For now, I have to make the best of what I have here and as they say...'if life hands you a basket of lemons than make lemonaide!!"  But first I need to find the lemons, then sugar, then a pitcher and a bunch of friends to serve it to!! lol Alors...et si je ne peux pas aller au Texas donc il est temps d'aller en France parceque vraiment je la manque and je reve d'etre la pour toujours!! 

bisoux-

Hek

bonjjjjjjjjjjjour!

Bonjour Tout le monde!  ca va?  alors, je suis tres bien.......et plus important je vive!! lol

Yes my lovelies, I am alive, recovering since St. Pats is quite an ordeal for a thirty year old!  lol  Just been busy. Got very busy at work teaching the lil ones and then going home and trying to catch up on TV, then tutoring, then blah blah! you get the idea. 

Since last chat we had, Crissy did indeed make her appearance.   She met me out and we went to peekaboo downtown and met up with my brother who was leaving work at the time, then we RAN to our bus and made it to eh Navy Pier, where I work, but did a quick stroll and ended up going to Bubbas Gump...the restaurant inspired from Forrest Gump. Lol.  It was delish and interesting how the service works!  We toasted Crissy into her 29 and her descent from tweenage years! ha!  Perhaps we are meeting up tonight for a gulls night out before she heads on back out to Texas.

I have been watching a lot of the OWN channel, and it is letting me have it! I love Oprah!  I did get an email stating that I am on the wait list for next round of taping in April, I hope I do get to go! 

I am very excited that in this past month I have finished two books and am on my third one.  Today I will also pick up my fourth book that I have on queue to read, the Autobiography of Ricky Martin.  I hear it really is good!  Can't wait to report back on it!  Also my Hekature Spring Collection is about to kick off this week. I have been commissioned by the lovely and talented legs of halsted, DIDA RITZ for a very special top secret assignment!  I will be couturing her all her accessories for a show on LOGO!! Including Tshirts with my name on it, so she can brand me out! Dida is fierce and gives you plenty of fish! ha! in her own words! but follow her on twitter @hellodida   tell her I told you so!  But yes, beads, gitter, wires, petals, etc...all is coming back to ChiTown.  My first collection since Hekrochet!! This will have to be  special branding made just for her...Hekadrag??? we will see! still toying with the name!  But lots of Hello Kittys will be butchered in this process as she loves Hello Kitty! 

Anywho, just wanted to drop in and say HEY!  or rather< BONJOURRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!  lol

adieu mes amis!  a bientot!

bisoux-

hek~

Happy St. Patricks....officially!!

Ha, it seems that a lot of holidays are simply popping up everywhere!  Though I do call this Birthday season as most of my commune friends share a birthday soon after each others!  Up next to get one step closer to 30 is Cristina.  She turns 29 and as fate would have it, she is in town, on a new job.  Hoping I get to see her as I have not seen her since August when I had my 'blow me away...into the windy city' farewell gathering in Austin.  Not keeping my hopes up as I know she is very busy and is on her first travel assignment here in the windy city.  But yes, Happy St. Patricks day.  I'm not officially wearing green aside from the two beaded necklace I was given while I got off the "L" stop at the train this morning, and my claim to fame since grade school...'you can't pinch me, I am wearing green....MY EYES!!'    My sister commented on my facebook today (www.facebook.com  heknuno1981@gmail.com) and said my nieces were also claiming the 'I got green eyes so donut pinch me card'. LoL I do have some nieces and one nephew with colored eyes.  It's funny cause us with colored eyes are referred to 'LOS GUEROS' lol....and then there is the rest....just saying!  But yes, tis St. Patricks, actually one of my favorite holidays since I child.  Not sure though if now at 30 I want to go out and get 'trirish' a combo of trash and Irish! lol  After all I already went out on saturday...so why go out again! geesh...30 is so tiring! honestly!

The weather is simply gorgeous these past few days....55! ha! still low for a Texas standard but breezy, beautiful and crisp here in Chicago.  Perhaps I feel it more since I live a block away from Lake Michican!  We will see!  I have hEkDUCATION today and get off early so might want to peek a boo the district and just get ONE green beer...after all I did break my lent rule already! I still have not had COKE, sorry I mean POP!! lol  I'm leaving the Museum relatively soon, just been working on my videos that were recorded of me and will be discussing at tomorrows workshop training.  But since the weather is nice out, I need to begin running again.  Plus the video did add ten pounds! ughh, quelle surprise!!  really! 

 Do not forget that if you or your friend has any questions to ask my panel of friends to please submit your friends questions at www.myfriendhasaquestion.blogspot.com or twitter at @myfriendhasaQ  or email at myfriendhasaQ@gmail.com   I, I mean my friends, will answer to the best that we can. 

cheers toast and bravo to you all!  I miss everyone in Texas and my babies!!  DAILY!!

peace

It's Britney BITCH!!

a few PLUG INS!

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Ides of March.....beware

soooooooooo

Its the Ides of March, and you know what they say....beware!!  Truly beware of those around you, you never know when things might go sour and those around you my back stab you, literally and as they say....shit hits the fan!  I know I've been stabbed and TBT, truth be told, I've stabbed! ha! basically killed!  So bitches beware! lol  But yes, just beware.  Now at 30 I've decided to truly take a look back and analyze what worked and what didn't.  It boils down to drama.  Unwanted, ridiculous drama!  GET OUT OF MY LIFE!  So I'm hoping I stick my guns and avoid it, and not be part of it. Love all those around and hopefully they will love me back for me! All the quirks and hesitations, I need to let go and simply enjoy. 

Since moving here, I have indeed changed my ways! I am learning to grow all over again, on my own. Much like when I first moved to Austin as a very naive 18 year old.  Here, I feel the same.  Alone and naive to a lot of the wants that I really want to be, and be part of.  I have began doing self reflections whether it pertains to work, my life in general, and ultimately my sexual being.  So far, all areas have have been analyzed and I continue to search and explore.  I want to grow. I want to learn. I want to officially belong.  Slowly I see myself becoming a bit more of what I think I can ultimately achieve and be.  With that, I have met people and have began expanding my social circle.  Work is going great and I am learning to trust and be more involved with my peers, older peers at that.  I have naturally, or so it seems, been more flexible. I figure...'hell I'm new here and no one scares me!' It is true!  I am letting go of my quirks....my hesitations! I am simply just going for it!  I can no longer be censoring myself and worry about the 'ifs'!  It is now either I do it or I don't! It's either they like it or what can be worse....they don't! Big whoop!  Simply dust myself and try again! 

So, yes! I am putting myself out there in all senses, trying to fully find what can be achieved!  I have fallen from grace and have even achieved glorious moments in life.  All empty, as I now know!  I am searching for my happier days but now as a 30 year old.  It is not how you fall, but how you pick yourself up! and I have picked myself up and taking Chicago the best that I can.  Happiness can come in many packages.  I am still opening several packages and still have not found my favorite!  This year, I WILL! 

Beware....the Ides of March are upon you!

Lost in Translation....

first off...just being honest but I drank beer on SUNDAY! ughh so much for my Lent promise! well at least it was just one commitment!  lol but I had to try the GREEN BEER.  Ive never had green beer and plus I was curious if I did indeed pee in green! The bar tender told me I would be! Im sure he was pulling my leg!  But yes, it was worth the cause! lol

So the other night, saturday evening my brother and I went out to Wrigleyville Bar, a bar in....you guessed it Wrigleyville by the stadium where the Cubs play.  It was quite a crowd and green filtered the entire view.  My brothers coworker took on a barback job and invited us out.  So we also went with his other coworker, the fabulous ABBY!  and Boy did we have a blast! too much! first off kuddos to Abby for buying us drinks, as she was in high hopes that each time she went to the bar, a guy we dubbed BEANIE would notice her and basically ask her out!  bust on all fronts, though she did try and put herself out there, so for that I say, you GLOW GIRL! She also bought us an amazing FISHBOWL full of amazing liquids...and that too attracted lil Adam to come introduce himself to us, her, and probally just for a free taste of the fishbowl! lol  But it was a very fun bar, I will most def come back to it.  All had fun, I even made a new teacher friend that teaches the third grade! Of course with all my teaching expertise I took  it upon myself to also join the game of 'last man standing' to see who would get to talk and make a new friend...well in essence!   Of course I won.  This is now two in a row, as the last time we had a challenge was when we went out for my bday, aka mardi gras and we had to compete for the most beads! I won by a landslide and a masque that was given to me! haha! 

anywho, Ill post when I get home later on from my hEkDUCATION Inc academic services that I do here! 

I might come up with a clever question section? Ill see! lol

anywho, back to the drawing board!  break is over!
Like I said, on sunda I went out and ended up tasting and drinking green beer.  We also got a new cable system so I can now catch up on my missed shows.  My brother got me to start watching HEROES and I love it! barely on season 1 and boy do they have lots of episodes...over 20 i think for season one!  so that will keep my evenigs busy!



CHI-RISH in Chicago

So Today was the infamous dyeing of the River in Chicago.  These year McDonalds was the sponsoring business, and it didn't disappoint. On a boat a giant replica of a McDs milkshake stood in a tilt position with a straw sticking out.  It was a giant Shamrock Milkshape spewing out in reality it was the dye.  I also hear that Chicago has a lot of Irish living here, hence Chi-rish! lol 

I hear it last a very long time...the green river....Im not sure if I believe that it last almsot all year! hmmm...I think the Leprachaun that told me this was very drunk! lol  I found no pots of gold, so bust!! I did see many rainbows! haha! 



River in Chicago dyed Green for St. Patricks



St. Patricks day, dyeing of the River

Ooooh......sighhhhhhhhhhhhh!  what to say, what to say!!  Today I find missing my babies a whole lot.  They were suppose to be here today actually, but my sister and mom cancelled their spring break road trips due to weather constraints! And yesterday I saw a documentary on DOGS DECODED! and it showed and proved that they are relatives of the Grey Wolve! and How our newly domesticated friends are more complex and highly evolved! It showed how they analyze our expressions, faces, tones, voices, etc!  lol but yes I miss my babies very much!  Miss Viktorya St. James De la Croix, Monsieur Tophyr St. Laurent McFierson, and my youngest Monsieur London Rio St. Stevens D'Angelo aka Chiquito!! I miss them sleeping with me! I miss them a lot!!

.....just blah blah....'we are what we eat!'

Okay I must admit, I'm a bit addicted at the moment just writing but I guess Ill just write as I get ideas!  A true rambling, I 'spose!  

well just sitting here in the living room looking at some old DVDs that I burned before I sold my laptop off to my brother.  It's titled 'Nuno All Around Gymnastics'  ha!  Its three clips of me doing tumbling and jumps and leaps and splits, etc! haha...and the final video is a video-over of me doing a routine to All-Around Gold Olympic Gymnast, Nastia Lufkin, in her Olympic floor exercise! I did my own version and loves it.  Perhaps I can upload it, just need to figure out how. Also saw videos of my singing some songs and working my vocals from pop to musicals! In keeping with spirit of gymnastics and flexibilities, I did a practice shoot of me remaking the newest Britney Spears OUT magazine picture....

Ha ha....so when I do finalize my practice poses Ill post up the picture, just for shits and giggles! but  yeah easy pose for me! Thirty and very flexible still.  But yes, Britney did an amazing spread of pictures on the magazine.  But I digress....where was I at again.

Oh yeah still trying to see who my Audience is, and what to really put on here and what to really say. Its almost like a venting site for me.  Just telling stories that I guess got me here.  Just watching this documentary called FOOD MATTERS, and it highlights that 'we are what we eat!'  It is very true, we really are what we eat.  It also highlighted that in order to make a long lasting building, you have to use the best building blocks and foundations, yet we don't give our bodies the best building blocks and thus die young.  VERY TRUE!   As you have gathered by now, maybe, food and me have always struggled.  I know that I am not obese or completely disgustingly huge, I just don't like my size!  I know I should work out and work hard for a better healthier body. AGAIN, I should add the right building blocks, but I don't.  I should! I should! This is why I am taking this challenge for the next forty days to heart.  I will run and will do this. The healthy way this time! It's actually a very haunting video about life and dieting and what we eat!  aye aye aye!  crazy! 

Okay, what a rambling!   I promise I will find my niche in this blog, so just bare with me....I will find the right content to share with you. 

See ya tomorrow peeps!

-H

ps

an old school ed hardy cap day pic of me! lol

Day 1

So day one of lent!  Ha, so far so good!  Well Id expect it to seeing that I'm not a walking drunk, lol.  So yeah, no beer nor any coke products!  Oddly though is that I had given up cokes long time ago, but coming to Chicago everyone drinks 'pop' and I fell back in love with Cherry Coke! ugh!! I miss it already just typing this!  Though I've learned to not say 'coke' here, especially asking 'hey do you have coke' cause well that simply implies the white powder form! lol So....no more pop for me! 

Today at work I was video recorded that will later be used for Bilingual education purposes.  It was fun, and honestly I was very pleased because I did not look like a gigantic red tomato seeing that I wore red today. lol  In fact I thought I looked great and healthy.  Ive been walking a lot and truthfully I lost all my Texas weight I gained when I went home in transition to arriving here.  THANK GOD!  But today I accepted a new challenge. I found old pics of me at 26 and 27 bdays and I was simply smaller and much more thin-boned!  I'm a big framed boy but I pushed myself, and Ill admit publicly now that I lost the weight for bad reasons and in bad ways!  Whatevs, the mission was accomplished so I really don't care.  A book that I really want to publish under the name of "Selftervention: The Final Flush" depicts my tales and struggles with weight and being nicknamed 'Gordo' by my family.  Not my real nickname of 'NUNO' but a term of endearment they would call me 'gordo' which means FAT ASS!  ugh!! It means chubby I guess but might as well call me FAT ASS!  So obviously following media trends I fell into a spell of obsession and wanting to be smaller framed as I've been told, 'no you can't do it!!'  I do not accept people telling me that I cant do things, I will go right out there and do it!  For instance in college in my psych class we learned that If you didn't learn to whistle by age 8, you wouldn't be able to whistle as an adult because all the motor skills wouldn't have developed that allowed one to whistle!  So all semester long, I practiced and practiced and now I can whistle! not a full 'ooooh you are sexy' whistle but a toot comes out!  bottom line is that I proved my professor wrong! 

So today, my brother egged me on after looking at my old pics and I sorta self accepted a challenge!  Operation Collar Bones!  So in addition to my no beer and pop rules I am now adding that I have to, HAVE TO, officially lose weight after 40 days!  running, walking, eating healthier, etc! I have to show my bones!  Its only 40 days! I really know I can push myself and see what can come of it! After all, summer is around the corner, its my first summer here in Chicago after 20 plus years and I want to wear my amazing summer short collections. 

Anywho....cheers! Happy Thursday to you all!

Its burlesque!!

So I survived my 30th!  My brother made me a five layer cake...it had layers of strawberry, chocolate, and white butter.  I loved it! 30 candles and all!! lol

So ended up tutoring last night.  Since Ive been in Chicago, I've taken on to launch my very own lil side entrepreneurship of  hEkDUCATION!  I have an awesome client who happens to be the Assistant Manager to a top chef and chef master, Rick Bayless. I get perks out of it! Like being dined and wined at his 5 star restaurant!  No wait, no reservations!  Simply ask her and she tells me to show up.  Loves it! But yes, I tutored and came home around 8:30 and came home to a delicious cake!!  Then got dolled up and painted the town red! My brother, his friend Abby, and I went out to Roscos and watched a friend of ours perform, her name is Milani.  and she WON!  It was fun!  We scamped on over to Spin where the MTV celebrity of RoadRules works as a bartender....Shane Landrum.

At one point I got some coins for dancing and infamous one-handed round offs! lol  So there you go, at Thirty I can still land a mean flip! ha! I guess I made it out and cabbed it home, but not before making a quick stop for a birthday shot that my cop friend bought me! ;)  .....so I get home and remembered that I had gone out and had forgotten my phone at home.  So I ran for it to check my messages....and to my dumb self ways, my phone flopped into the toilet bowl! ughhh I quickly grabbed it out and tried to dry it off.  Sorta worked, but apparently it was making phone calls in the morning...so finally my phone simply died!! ugh!! can you imagine, no phone? I bulldogged it bad!  Went to work as usual and barely made it through.  Have new loaner phone from ATT till I upgrade into my iPhone4. 

So home now, relaxing before I head on out for hEkDUCATION and watching BURLESQUE!!  Xtina is very tiny in the movie!!  Thin tiny! Bless her, hopefully she can get over her lil misfortunes that have been surrounding her.  Im team Xtina and wish her the best!

Anywho, nothing scandalous to report today!  I did finish my childrens book, book 5 of Diary of a Wimpy Kid.  lol  research for my children's book that I want to write, based of my Dogs.  I plan on calling it, The dod in Pink, adventures of Viktorya St. James.  I still want to publish my memoires: From Fire to Fire!

Watching burlesque really makes me want to go watch a musical!

Off I go! 

final thoughts.....

TODAY IS LENT, what did you give up for 40 days?

I gave up COKES, because I restarted drinking coke again, and Im giving up BEER!  empty calories.  ill stick to Vodka. 

Happy Bday!

No secret, today is my 30th birthday!  So technically I am 30 years and 9 months....since mitosis! lol
Whew!!  really 30?  That seems old, right?  I guess Ill embrace it and move on to either being flirty or dirty at 30!! ha!

So here I am, and have decided that I will do my best to document my first year as a 30 year old!  I have another blogspot that on occasion I will dab into, www.frenchector.blogspot.com but I will update this frenchicago1981 more closely! 

So I decided that I did have a great run at 20.  I was young and finishing up my higher education at the University of Texas at Austin. In fact around this age I met my most amazing friends that are now my betest of friends.  Others soon followed but I realized that we had such a blast, having the time of my life!  At the time I lived in Austin, Texas, and well its a college town, and to be 20....well its the perfect location to be at!

Obviously much fun, parties, socializing was had by all.  In my 20s I learned to grow up and make decisions all on my own.  I had left the nest of Del Rio, or as I call it, DULL RIO!  My parents were at least 4 hours driving time away!  I had also recently returned from studying abroad in Lyon France as a scholar and was an amazing journey....one I will always carry in my heart!  Even there I had to be on my own.  The tech world of social media was barely taking root.  I did indeed have my facebook.com account!  But now everything is techy!   Needless to say, I have decided to take every opportunity that comes my way and share it with the tech world! 

This will be about my up and coming 30s!  Im in a new city! Chicago, Illinois.  Im back to where everything began.  I feel that I should run with it and start documenting it all!  Im sure pictures, and videos will soon follow.  At this point all I have of my 20s are countless of journals friends have all given me.  I have several because each one is a particular theme...whether it be travels, life, work, or even crushes....yes an infamous book that details somewhat love stories!  ALL ARE SEALED and when I do die, perhaps will be published!  lol

So here I am as I said before.....Today I start anew.  Just got a haircut and its MARDI GRAS! I was always of holiday bdays of friends because that is so radical to have! But alas, for today I can celebrate MARDI GRAS and my 30th!  Perhaps Ill be a 'whooooo' boy tonight! just one more night of 'whooooo' at every comment I hear!!  WHOOOOOO!!

My name is hector....I go by Nuno to my family....Heknuno1981 by email....Mr. H in the classroom.....hey you by rude students......friend to others.....Best friend to some....uncle to my wonderful nieces and nephews....brother to my siblings.....son to my parents....cousin to my cousins.....and Im ready to be ME!

Love me, hate me, say what you want about me. Im past the point of games and a world of ignorant uneducated fools...LET GO!  I am!! I will strive to be a better person at 30.  Let bye gones be bye gones!

Peace and love and thank you all for the birthday wishes.  This boy is happy today and want to carry on this feeling. 

Cheers to me and my so called life!

my next 30 years!!

I think Ill take a moment, to celebrate my age
the ending of an era, and the turning of a page
Now it's time to focus on where I go from here
Lord have mercy on my next 30 years!

Hey my next thirty years, Imma have some fun
try to forget about all the crazy stuff Ive done
Maybe now Ive conquered my adolescent years,
hey Ill do it better in my next 30 years!......

Tim McGraw sang this song best!! My next 30 years!  Its obviously a very fitting and appropiate song to ring in my 30th Bday!  Quite frankly, and the whole honest truth is that I always have said that I would begin living at 30.  Sure by my 30th I was suppose to be amazingly fit, and have life all figured out!  Reality is that Im not amazingly fit and I have yet to figure out this world we call life! 

Im no longer in Texas, the place I called home and the place where I grew up.  I am now, ironically enough, in Chicago, Illinois....the city where I was birthed!  30 years later Im back to where my life began.  Perchance it's fate or simply coincedence, but Im taking this as a chance to prove who I AM!  WHO I WAS BORN TO BE!  AS ME!  I AM......NUNO! 

Yes even at Thirty I quote my pop divas of the world!!  As Gaga says: I was born to survive...no matter gay, straight, or bi, lesbian, transgendered life, I was BORN THIS WAY!!

I bid adieu to my 20s and await the celebration of my new found 30s! 
Cheers toast bravo to you all who made my 20s a fantastic one.  Ups and downs, sure I went through it all.  Cliche but it has made me stronger and can now face the world and go placidly into a celebration of the new chapter.


With that said, Ill launch my very official first blog tomorrow as 30 year old! 


Immortal beloved!

nuno