"With this ring, I thee wed!!!"

I DO!!!  I DO!!

Ha! I wish!  Pretty much a dream! I doubt and actually I know for certain that I will never marry! never! EVER!   Today was the awaited marriage of Prince William and Dutches of Cambridge Kate Middleton!  Crazy, just like that!!  How insane! 

Speaking of marriages, I am scheduled to be the best man at one of my new friends wedding here in Chicago, slate for June 2! Though much hype and craziness is involved in the wedding party, I am somehow part of that mess! lol!  I will stand there as best man with a bright big smile....a bit phony perhaps but nonetheless a smile!

I just finished reading the Memoires of Ricky Martin: ME!  Absolutely fucking loved it!  wow! crazy! I won't lie, but at times I was crying in the book!  Ricky let it all out!  A book much like I want to release one day...for either personal gain or simply publishing status! but I have always wanted my own personal memoire out there so that people can at least understand a small part of it!    I have over and over again began my life at the age of 10.  The terrific birthday party that led to my absolutely disfigured life-path!    With it and through it I want to share all my experiences and details that have allowed me to now better understand myself. I am still growing and just now at the age of 30 began wanting to fully accept my own decisions and actions and after all to understand that this is my LIFE, not anyone Else's! 

His book was on point...every aspect, every word, and every thought evoke the inner me that I know I was, am, and could be!   Alongside my memoire I would like to also write my children's book! based of my dog, Viktorya St. James...a promise I made her years ago!  Her life, legacy to me!  My pseudo-daughter for all intent and purposes!  alongside my other children, Tophyr St. Laurent and London Rio St. Stevens.   These are my pseudos and until I nerve up the right time to adopt or surrogate my own children.  Another venture I said I would like to feat around the age of 36.    Life plans are all hitting me. It's my new found age, I know! I know now that actions I do now will certainly carry over into my true adulthood!  Alone or married!! 

For now the only I DO, I choose to accept is the I DO want to better understand me, and that I DO want to find me in someone else to live, love and simply be!